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Chrismas Day 2: Resolutions & Promises to Myself

Merry Christmas!

Last year I promised myself that I’d begin to get my physical body in shape. I’ve done really well thus far & intend to keep up with the gym & pool visits, eating better & making an effort to get enough hours of sleep per night.

Although I am not quite at my projected muscle-building gaols for 2012, I am proud of the functionality that I’ve gained in my quest to build stronger muscles. Since I am not as ” big” a I’d hoped to be by now,I am not entering the 2013 Panhandle Showdown in April. Hopefully I’ll be more ready for that sort of fitness competition by April of 2014 .

In 2013, my goal is to increase my self-confidence. I do not have much self-confidence at all, so I tend to overcompensate for this deficit. Currently I am not sure how I will work towards this goal, but I’m sure the answer will come to me.

I’ve never been one with self confidence–throughout most of my school years I was bullied badly by my peers. As a result of this schoolyard cruelty, I am shy highly suspicious of people until I get to know them better. Because ms of my schoolyard orentors were girls, I have a hard time especially trusting women. In 2013 I plan to further the ” Sisterhood” I already enjoy with my few female friends & also open myself to meeting new gal pals.

What are some thing that YOU wish to improve upon in 2013?


Tikkun Olam

 Shalom Shabbat, y’all.

Coming from an interfaith family– I am a huge fam of both Christmas & Hanukkah. Naturally Christmas means more to me, but my Jewish heritage is a gift–and one that I have never taken for granted.

Anyhow, I came across a Hebrew term this evening that I had not known until now. It is : ” Tikkun Olam” & it is { very loosely} translated as ” to fix what is broken”.

As Christ-followers, we have a responsibility to fix what is broken in our world.  The Advent/Hanukkah/Christmas season is the perfect time to reach out to our sister & fellow humans who are suffering in mind, body or spirit.  Instead of focusing on materialism, we should take time to help another person { or people} who are needy.

Although helping to provide basic needs is a great way to start, sometimes people who ” seem” to not need help are the neediest.  There are many lonely souls in the world : & I know from experience that the loneliness amplifies itself tenfold during the holidays. Reach out to someone who is struggling emotionally or spiritually this Advent. Give to your local food bank. Visit an elderly person who might not get may visitors. Donate toys to a shelter for homeless families.


Spread shalom this holiday season.

” required” post-election thoughts…..

I am sad about the results of the Presidential election. But, no matter which of the candidates from the two major parties won, I’d still be sad. However, I am thankful that I was able to vote for someone whom I feel IS qualified to be President. Although he didn’t win{ as a matter of fact, he did not even make a dent in the general electorate}  I am grateful that I had the option to vote for someone who DID NOT have the {D} or {R} behind his or her name. :O)

No, I did not ” waste” my vote. In my opinion, the only wasted vote is the vote that is not cast.

I am sad that  US politics is so partisan.  During the course of this election season, I saw & heard such negativity from supporters of both Republicans & Democrats. never in my 36 years have I witnessed an election that brought out the worst in people. There was so much negativity that I felt weary of the whole election process by May of this year.

I did not watch either convention nor any of the debates.  I read the commentary from both CNN & Fox News & both major cable networks left out Gary Johnson. If Gov. Johnson had been invited to debate, I would have watched every debate. But Big Media gets their ratings  in part from partisanship– so it would defeat their purpose to encourage independent thinking & critical analysis of facts. This political season reminded me of a heated Super Bowl rivalry instead of a serious part of history.  It seemed that these hardcore Democrats & Republicans seemed to act like cheerleaders { either for Team Obama or Team Romney}

Although I live in an area of the country that is heavily Republican, I saw much of the same ugliness among the Democratic minority here in Northwest Florida. Most of my family are die-hard Democrats who were baffled that I could not support Obama. Many of my friends here are Republicans & of course they wanted me to vote for Mitt Romney. It was hard, but I maintained my Independence & rejected the candidates of the two-party political ” machine” in favor of someone who has strength & courage to step outside a mainstream political label.

I declared my Independence. I am free from partisanship. Alleluia.


Gone to the dogs….

he big news in my life is the addition of a new family member with four legs & a tail. Best Dude & I adopted a four-year-old male English Springer Spaniel about a month ago.

His American Kennel Club-registered name is ” Johnny Utah Roan” but we renamed him “SEAMUS”.

Most of you know that we tried to adopt a little female Springer back in the spring & how that ended with the dog biting Best Dude & her subsequent return to the foster organization. It was a sad time for us. Both Best Dude & I are dog-lover & I know that I felt liked a failure when we had to return the biter to the foster home fomwhere she came. Although I totally understand the rescue organization’s policy on never adopting out dogs who bite–it still made me feel like  I somehow failed the needy dog.

Seamus eats A LOT! We’re trying o get him to only at twice–but the first week we had him he  was so UNGRY. Acing on advice from  dog-loving friend, e bought Seamus some diet dog food–hoping that he won’t find the low-calorie food palatable. We were wrong.

Seamus is a wonderful addition to our lives. We are blessed that Go led him to us.

{ Iwould post a photo–but WordPress is not working properly, so I’ll need to wait to post some photos of Seamus here. Sorry. }

My first competitive 5K walk in 10 years.

Best Dude & I are competing in a local charity 5K race on Saturday , October 13. { our priest is getting married that day also, but the wedding isn’t slated until 6 PM}

I have not done a competitive walk in over 10 years, so I’m a bit nervous. I’d elected to compete in the walkers’ division, since I’ve not run 3 consecutive miles since high school * and* my left knee is still recovering from the hiking accident.

Best Dude & I are both fast walkers & I think there is a good chance that both of us will place in our appropriate age/gender divisions. :O)

To prepare for the 5K, I’m concentrating on training my legs more for these next two weeks. Swimming helps we build speed, but I also need to build endurance by doing squats, leg presses & sit-ups.

Perhaps I’ll add * some* leg-pounding cardio my indoor routine, bu I do no want to re-injure my knee. When I got hurt, my doctor told me to stay ut of the gym & pool for one week–and that one week was mental torture for me. Perhaps next October I’ll consider running this 5K- but for now I’ll err on the side of caution.

Upcoming 9/11 anniversary

This week will mark the anniversary of the attacks on the World Trade Center on September 11, 2001.

I remember that day well–literally as if it were yesterday. I am 36 years old & that i one of the pivotal moments that people of my generation will recall. Our parents recall where the were & what they were doing when President Kennedy was shot. For we late Generation Xer’s, this {along with the ” Challenger” disaster} is pivotal to our place in history. I was in my mid-20’s & still very naive. Although I’d grown up an avid reader , I never was exposed to hatred on any large scale.

I was a college student finishing my last semester at The University of West Florida. I was running late for my firs class, and I walked into the room full of VERY QUIET students { in a room full of communication arts’ majors, silence almost NEVER happens} I also noted that the professor had not arrived.

Curious, I asked a classmate ” Where is Dr Blonde?”

Student: “She is in her office crying. Didn’t you hear?”

Me: “Um , no. What did I not hear?”

Student:” Two planes flew into the World Trade Center in New York City this morning.”


I ran the short distance to the Student Union where I knew there was a big-screen television. A huge crowd of students & faculty The _Today_ show was on & they had live reports from what later became known as Ground Zero.

I still have no words for what I felt when I saw what had happened to my sister & fellow Americans Never in my young life had I been witnes to such a display of deadly hatred.

As soon as I could, I called my Dad. he asked me if I’d wanted to come home { it was a Thursday} for the weekend & I said yes. tearfully, I walked back to my place to pack the few things I needed for the trip home. Dad met me at our usual meeting place on campus and all I could say during the 40-minute back to Beach Town was ” Why? Why, Dad ,do they hate us so much?”

Eleven years later, I still want to know why.

Guys of Autumn

Ah, September, how I’ve missed thee!

It is not as bloody HOT as it was since May here on the Gulf Coast. Storm season is { almost} over & one can expect to enjoy fresh air in the morning without worrying about inviting in the humidity into the home. School is back in session, so my workout time at the gym is much more efficient. :O)

But to me, autumn really does not start until FOOTBALL season officially commences.

Last night Best Dude & I watched The University of Alabama CRUSH ” That School Up North” in the household’s first SEC football game of 2012 on TV. I am a huge football follower but he is not.Thankfully, Best Dude has a lot of patience with me during football season.

Next week , however, is STEELER SEASON 2012. To we Pittsburgh-area native games on Sunday afternoons are almost{ but not quite} sacramental.

Here we go! Play ball!

Storm 2012

I came back from my vacation up north & a big storm enters the Gulf. :O( Great. Although I know the storm’s coming to the Gulf area has NOTHING to do wth my arrival home , it is an eerie coincidence for me.

Anyhow, we storm-proofed the house & the storm changed courses. We’ll still get some of the easterly{ the ” bad” side ” } of the storm, but t looks like it will be a lot of heavy rain. Best Dude & I dd some shopping this morning & caught a band of heavy rain on our way home this morning.

It is now heading directly for Louisiana. While I am VERY grateful that the Florida Gulf Coast is spared the wrath of ” Isaac” but I am praying for the people who live & work along the Mississippi/Louisiana coast. Thanks to the media, I cannot forge that ” Isaac is coming ashore on the 7th anniversary of “Katrina”. If I recall correctly, Katrina” was initially aiming for the Florida Gulf Coast, but took a sharp loop west & hit New Orleans.


I told Best Dude{ and anyone else who would listen} that I MUCH prefer blizzards to named tropical , moving storms.:o/

Day One Recap

I made it!

After a hellish 6 and 1/2 hour delay in Atlanta, I made it safely to Pittsburgh. My godmother & one of my godsisters met meat Baggage Claim & the ride back to the Lake was fraught with a downpour! Due to the weather, we did not get back to the Lake until after 10 PM.

Anyhow, I slept in until 8:30 EST. I’m staying in the loft bedroom & using the basement bathroom, so keeping all o my stuff organized is a challenge.

I’ve discovered that there *are* some spots where I can get cell phone service. I’ve talked with Best Dude several times today{ he had the day off} The ONLY bad part about this sabbath time is that I already miss my Best Dude. Thank goodness for Email & cell phones!

Ths evening I even got to SWIM this evening. Boo-Yah!!

So far, its been a good sabbath.


I’ve been busy . Thursday I leave fo my annual Northern exposure trip to Pittsburgh/eastern Ohio/WV & I am REALLY excited.

I’ll stay up there for two weeks, with most of the time spent at my godparents’ place on a lake in Ohio. This private lake park & campground is one of my ” thin places” & I use this time as a retreat from te stresses of daily life here at home. Sadly, Best Dude will not make the trip up North with me this year–but we hope that MAYBE next year we’ll go together. Naturally I will miss him, but we’ll ” make up for lost time” upon my return.

Here are some random thoughts on various & sundry topics:

Chik-fil-A: People, please get a grip on life. While I totally disagree with the chicken sandwich making company’s views on marriage, i still enjoy the occasional sandwich from there. So no, I am not boycotting Chik-fil-A. On the other hand, the opposing side of this issue is just as absurd. Really,must there be a nationwide GLBT ” kiss-in”? Honestly, sometimes the left is as silly as is the Right. :o/

Olympics: Hometown sprinter Justin Gatlin placed third in the 100-meter dash. I’m proud of one of Pensacola’s native sons. ut I am sad that diver Cassidy Krug did not medal in the finals women’s diving competition.

Politics: They are all crooks.